Sunday, November 28, 2010

70:30 ... apa rasionalnya............

sekarang...kat ofis aku sibuk dgn istilah 70:30...adoi...fening betul...naper la nk kacau territory org...aku pun x fhm...tp kalo aku diberi peluang...aku pun nk keluar dari sini...jauh..jauh...lagi jauh lagi suka...tp tgk kawan2 yg berhijrah..lagi haapy kalo 'berteman'...ada hubby..ada anak...mesti lagi meriah kan..hehe...berangan leh la...

biker : saya nk kuar gak dr sini...volunteer jadi 70..

aku : aiza nk ikut gak..tp nk transfer ke hd-ob... (sambil sengih sorang2)

biker : hah?????????????????????? (senyum sumbing..)

mek : eh...naper ob lak tiba2??dh bertaut kembali?? (senyum sambil pc)

aku : (terkedu jap..)...no..bukannya ob...tp ob-hd yg baru tu...yang tu dh
berpatah arang...hehe...

biker & mek ..lantas mengetawakan aku yg bengong nie...
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tiba2 2-3-4-5-6-7 hari lepas masa tgh drive blk dari keje lewat pagi di highway yang sunyi sepi...
aku teringat kat org tu...huhu...menitis air mata...adeh..time tu plak dia nk menyeru nama aku...hehe...lantas aku teringat..jika secara tiba2 kita terasa sayu, tu maknanya...setan sdg mengganggu kita..kene fight..kene fight..kalo x, leh hanyut....
tp kekdg....aku mengingati dia gak...loneliness cannot be helped..

Thursday, November 25, 2010

and i mis u...


Don’t be afraid to cry
It wasn’t wasted time
We just couldn’t win that fight
And I knew you couldn’t stay
You had to go your way
There’s really nothing left to say
But every now and then you cross my mind
And I try not to think about where you are to
But I miss you ’Cause I really miss you
There’s no going back ‘cause what’s done is done
But I miss you ‘cause I really miss you
But sometimes love just ain’t enough
Hey We didn’t write the rules
It wasn’t me wasn’t you
We both know that life is cruel
I know we can’t go down that road again
And it hurts too much to think what might have been
I know we can’t escape from the paths that we have chosen
But every now and then,
I’m reminded I know we can’t go down that road again
And it hurts too much to think what might have been

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penulis lirik ni tgh sedih ker meninggalkan kekasih hatinya???????/

Monday, November 22, 2010

rebel...


boring..borin,.boring...rasa mcm nk tercabut nyawa jer......nape org x fhm??kacau betul..makin aku meluap2 nk tinggalkan kl..tinggalkan semua.. bina hidup baru...ofis pun bukan suka kat aku pun...bertahun2 keje tp stil xmau permanentkan aku..bukan aku minta sedekah..tp try sendiri..mohon sendiri..tak minra recomendation pun....tp stil xdpt...ape ntah....nasib aku x sebaik org lain...
aku rasa nk marah jer...marah..marah..marah...menyampah dgn diri sendiri...very inmanageable...aku pun dh makin selekeh...aku dh penat...with everything...plz...giv me way...sampai satu tahap..no turning back..bila kita wat baik pun, apa pun xda...kita blk kene...lumrah alam??damn...how to restart everything????camner nk kuar dr comfort zone aku nie...need fresh air...im suffocating....

Thursday, November 18, 2010

To jot down my journey to singapore...part 2..

..121110 jumaat...

and the journey continued..
last class..last class...whats the conclusion???what i gained from this training??tp bg aku la..personally...training ni mmg bgs...sebagai studio director, i worked closely dgn TP, cameraman, graphic designer, and all the technical team...emmm....i worked hard to learn about technical theme...
back to hd cinematography training..nowadays, sana-sini kedgran hd, hd,hd....ape pun pasal hd...sampai makeup pun ada hd definition...ingat gajet jer yg terjebak dgn situasi ni...pada aku la..hd ni more less about how clear we can see...punya la pure sampai every tiny pixels pun mampu terlihat yg sebelum ni, agak terselindung...
walaupun masih kurang fhm...tp demi RTM tercinta..akan aku pastikan projek HD STUDIO3 ni lancar, selancar2 nye...walaupun terpaksa keje lebih masa tanpa OT...huhu...mmg xda pun..hehe...dulu, kerana studio3 jugak aku patah tangan...sampai lari la alignment tangan aku sampai sekarang...aduhai...hantaran kawin pun jadi kurang agaknya....

back to singapore...lepas belajar,ada penyampaian sijil..huhu...bestnya dpt kumpul sijil...susah nk dpt g kursus kat luar malaysia ni...class dismissed by 6pm slightly...farewell geng media prima...diorg direct blk kl by flight...kami stranded lg kat singapore for last sight seeing...

blk hotel,macam biasa...mandi, solat...pastu get ready for jalan2....huhu...syoknya...took cab..go to arab street...makan beriyani ayam..pastu jalan kaki ke simling..kedai dh tutup...pastu jalan kaki cari mustafa centre..jalan..dan jalan..dan jalan..dan jalan ikut gps...peh letih giler...baru la sampai sana...this place lebih kurang mcm mydin tp org ckp, brgan dia lebih berkualiti...

spend few hours there..beli la bj2 untuk buahtangan untuk famili....pastu masa nk blk, ingatkan nk amik cab tp cab xmau stop..ceh..ingat org xda dolar ker????
and...jalan..and jalan...and jalan..and jalan..sampai nk tercabut lutut...about more than hour our walking distance tau...hampeh sungguh...last2,give up..no more cab...took the mrt..and return to hotel tiredly...

131110 sabtu...

back to malaysia...mis my mum, dad,sistas..myvi..bantal..selimut..katil..the worst part..BUS SICK..all the way from johor to kl...sound like mengada..but itulah kenyataannya...........adios singapore.....

Sunday, November 14, 2010

To jot down my journey to singapore...


091110 selasa

jiwa ku besar nk naik komuter...huhu...mak ai...crowdednya...tp ditetapkan hati..no turning back..hehe...dgn backpackernya...dgn hati yg tabah aku pun meneruskan perjalanan...terjumpa kawan sekolah menengah...tgh expecting anak ke-4...em..Alhamdulillah...aku jugak yg masih kosong...sampai ktm lama, aku xtau how to across the stesen...coz as far as i concerned, ada laluan bawah tanah...but no more...so, have to naik, trn tangga...tp xpe...aku redha...
bila kawan2 semua dah berkumpul di NICE, kami dihidangkan dgn coffee@tea..dgn kek pisang...dlm hati ku berkata...huhu...no wonder return ticket rm181...soon, after kami semua dh naik bas, pramugari tu pas sorang satu small pillow dan selimut...bgs..bgs..sbb aku dh lupa jaket aku...
perjalanan diteruskan...FAREWELL KL>>>plz mis me....so that i wil return safely...
dlm perjalanan, pramugari tu hidang mufin, sandwich dan mineral...pe lagi..makan ler...pastu, stop 30min kat pagoh R&R..pastu continue jalan..pramugari tu tanya..coffee@tea??of course i took coffee...i take coffee all the time...
sampai di imigresen malaysia...adus...berdebar2...alhamdulillah..lepas dgn jayanya...
sampai imigresen singapore...adus..bikin malu sahaja...ada ka patut, i put my hp dlm poket...no wonder buzzer berbunyi...kene la cek dgn officernya...
reach singapore at 1400...wah...my 1st impression...cantiknya singapore....
terus ke mediacorp...and waiting another group from mediaprima...diorg ni naik flight...tp mejar nk sedapkan hati kami...eventhough diorg naik flight, kita lagi cepat, sbb kita sampai dulu...hehe.....
ada roadtour sekitar mediacorp...best la tmpt ni..agak2 apply keje, leh dpt ker??aku ni tau wat studio directing jer...antara yg best, yg tgk visual dari HD tv melalui 3D spec...peh..sungguh mcm real....lain2, trafikwatch pun menarik juga...penting tu unit ni untuk menjaga lalulintas seluruh singapore...kalo ada speedtrap pun, diorg leh inform pada public jgn speed...huhu...syok..syok..
by 5pm agak ya, we reached hotel...robertson quay hotel...SD150 per nite...mak ai...mahalnya...
pastu, mlm gi cari mkn..jumpa foodcourt di liang court...huhu...mkn nasi goreng+telur mata,...blk hotel, tdo..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

101110 rabu

seawal 6.30am aku dh jg...adeh..letih betul...xsyok tdo kat katil org ni...lepas mandi, solat...aku turun bfast...kat hotel ni..bfast x halal tp xda pork...hehe...camner tu???aku minum coffee, roti bakar...k la tu...
kami pun berjalan g kelas...berkenalan dgn otai2 media prima...adus...diorg ni, semua heads of unit...ganas...ganas...aku pun jadi pasif sbb for 200% sure diorg ni penuh ilmu di dada...
for 1st day, our lecturer tu, ajar pasal camera...sesuai dgn tujuan training tu...HD cinematography training...adeh...agak complicated tp masih mampu ditelan dgn baik...semua pun pasal camera...camera..camera...cameraman suka la...tu dh darah dagingnya....hehe..aku???tau marah je kalo shot x betul..pastu bg q..pan right..pan left..hehe...
ptg, lepas kelas abis, blk bilik ja..mandi and jamak solat...pastu, jalan kaki pg ke mrt..1st time naik mrt..best gak..laju..on time..tp time salah la..org tgh blk keje...so, terlalu crowded...
my destinasi ialah orchard road...cari ayam bakar ojajoli...alhamdulillah...jumpa... sbb mejar rely on his gps...tp aku mkn udang bakar...lepas mkn2, jalan2 kat area sana..meriah sungguh...bought souvenirs untuk kawan2 sikit....
then, amik mrt blk hotel...solat jamak maghrib/isyak then zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

111110 khamis

whuuaaaa...................ngantuknya.....bgn..bgn..g kelas...after bfast, kami terus g kelas...by 8.30 dh sampai kelas dgn jayanya...takdir tuhan..hujan di bumi singapura...adoi...padan la kelas sejuk bangat...apapun kelas masih diteruskan....as usual, kami mkn kat rendang corner..sedap gak...pastu kelas pun bersmbg...all about camera...teringat kat DSLR aku yg hilang tu...aku tau minat aku yg satu ni tak penah luntur...tp xterkumpul duit nk beli yg baru...nnt la..akan ku ada sebiji DSLR yg hitec..HD lagi...mula la aku berangan2...ada abg tv3 tu ckp, rm2500 dh leh dpt yg bgs giler...huhu...mana nak cari duit...tp xpe...akan ku pastikan, akan ku miliki this DSLR...impian memilikinya sama naik dgn impian memiliki R1..................
abis kelas, as usual, g blk hotel jap..mandi, solat jamak..and ready for jalan2...
kali ni g arab street to have murtabak singapore...huhu..best in town..aku order murtabak kambing...SD4..worth it...after that, jalan2...byk kedai dh tutup..kat simling ni, aku beli mp4...pastu, amik lrt, blk hotel and solat jamak dan zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........................................

121110 jumaat

last day on the scene...apa conclusion nya training ni??

...will be continued...

Thursday, November 4, 2010

WHY???????????????????????????

Ya Allah...why at this hour,...why..why...why....why...why...why...why....suddenly i feel so melancolic....feel so depressed....adoi....benci...benci...benci....